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My Fitness Journey | Weight Loss Transformation, Binge Eating, & Body Image Struggle

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Hi guys, In this video I talk about my fitness journey, how I lost close to 40lbs, my struggle with binge eating, & body image. If you're someone who battles binge eating I strongly encourage you to talk to a professional. Remember you are not alone. Thank you for watching this video, ily guys! An article for someone who may not know where to start: https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/information/binge-eating-disorder Websites mentioned: http://www.simplyshredded.com https://www.bodybuilding.com/index.html GYMSHARK LINK :http://gym.sh/Shop-Maryana-Dvorska OMAR'S CHANNEL: https://www.youtube.com/user/OmarHoffi www.womensbest.com use code "Maryana10" for 10% off For more updates follow me on social media: -Instagram: Maryanadvorska -Snapchat: Maryana_dc My name is Maryana Dvorska! My channel is mostly vlogs that are based around fitness, nutrition, working out, and balancing my life while trying to stay healthy both physically and mentally! I post lots of full days of eating videos as well as workouts, both fitness and non fitness clothes try on hauls, and more! Hope you enjoy!
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yo.guurlvalerie (10 hours ago)
Literally inspiring
Chloe French (2 days ago)
I’m so glad I found this video. I was overweight and then got super restrictive & developed some awful habits, and then went the completely opposite way and then put on loads of weight due to binge eating 😩 I’m currently losing weight slowly & trying to improve my relationship with food
ashley lonardo (2 days ago)
Dear god this video is a blessing for me. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm only 17, and quite honestly I've gone through a majority of what you've also experienced! Binge-eating is such an insane concept that I am only just now starting to accept. Through constant restriction, I would binge. And it was crazy- because I wouldn't feel immensely full as it was happening, it's almost like my stomach was this never ending pit... but later it would hit me. The guilt. The fullness. Your analogy of it being an out of body experience is so spot on... it literally feels like you don't want it to happen, but someone takes the reigns and makes it happen anyway! I cannot stress enough how grateful I am for your story and your video. Hopefully I can take away some EXTREMELY valuable approaches and lessons from you. I will never stop working on bettering my mental, emotional, and physical state.
Shay_ Slays (3 days ago)
I binged out while watching this.
Halli Jackson (3 days ago)
Thank you for sharing this. I needed to hear a lot of what you had to say!
Isabel Thiel (4 days ago)
You are beautiful and amazing. Thank you for sharing your story for all those who really need to have a healthy relationship with food, you can be a real inspiration.
Mary C (5 days ago)
This happened to me. But I didn't bounce back :(
anvacarz 12 (5 days ago)
Your comment on overeating - I have to eat this cookie today because I can’t eat it tomorrow- really hit home for me. I’m really glad to see that you’ve worked past binge eating and I’m working to do the same now. ❤️
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India Mcdougall (5 days ago)
i love you
Rebekah Rainey (6 days ago)
Omg that was great and so relatable
Thanks for sharing!! I was 192 at my heaviest, now I'm 122! It's hard work but if you stick with it things get easier :)
Valeria Prieto (9 days ago)
I’m 5 feet tall and when I go to the gym I feel sooo uncomfortable because people look at me and literally think I’m 12 years old. ITS SO ANNOYING. Also all of my friends are so tall which makes me look even younger.
Adrian Labastida (9 days ago)
Great information, nice video!
bklyn2014 (10 days ago)
You look like Shailene Woodley
Luvell (10 days ago)
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Danielle Workman (11 days ago)
I relate so much to your story. I have on and off battled an urge to binge eat and crash diet. My relationship with food has been so bad in the past.. Now I’m at the stage where I go to the gym frequently, but still feel nervous about people watching me or judging. Hopeful to move past that soon.
Eve Cheris (13 days ago)
I have a super similar story! When I was 15, I randomly found myself weighing more than I "should have" and extremely unhealthy. My mental and physical health was terrible. So, I did something called the Standard Process Cleanse. It's really amazing for just ridding your body of toxins and I got SO HEALTHY. After the 21 days, I was slender, happy, and very obsessed with dieting. So, for several months I spent all day thinking about what I was going to eat and learning all about health food, until one day I just threw caution to the wind and ate a donut. I cried with guilt and ate another donut... and thus began the bingeing. I started eating these foods I hadn't had in ages, and I couldn't stop. Before when i was overweight it was just lack of exercise and overeating, but this was the full-on pancake type of scenario. That was when I was 16, and it's over two years later and I'm still struggling with my relationship with food. I binge WAY less and on semi-healthy food, but I feel guilty eating. Because of this, although I was able to get down to my healthy weight awhile back, I still shot right back up again. It's hard, but as I gain confidence in myself and the value of strengthening my body and not denying myself good things in the right quantities, it's getting better and better.
Malory Davila (14 days ago)
Wow she is so naturally pretty
FLCL (14 days ago)
I relate to this so hard.
sofia_ xoxo (14 days ago)
You don’t know how much I relate to this 99 percent of the stuff u said about ur weight is happening to me now I understand and now I am finally starting to lose weight healthily because of you so thank you sooo much I don’t know where I’d be at now without you
Maja Hagelbeck (14 days ago)
Omg, this is exactly what i’ve been through , exactly. I have never related this much to anything else ever before. when I was at my worst I couldn’t explain what was happening to me. I felt like no one could understand or relate so I never really took care of the problem. I want to Thank you, for posting this video. I don’t feel like I’m alone anymore❤️
Unicorn (15 days ago)
I love you
sophie2.O (16 days ago)
Thank you so much for sharing this. I am currently going through this right now and its been really hard..its so reassuring to know I am not alone and this is opening my eyes that it is hope and a way to get out of a eating disorder thank you
Arellica (16 days ago)
Im 190 and 5’5 I’ve already lost 8 lbs and I’m in sophomore year and I’m joining basketball
Paige Johnson (17 days ago)
I struggle with anorexia/bulimia. I’m getting better. Happy to relate to you and your story, to some degree. There’s always a new beginning around the corner.
Issa Melissa (17 days ago)
"Pancakes were an issue for me" you're really cute lol I feel you girl
Savannah Rojo (18 days ago)
I am crying right now. This. This is what I’ve been looking for. I am so thankful that you made this video. I am so inspired from this. This has been my life story. For the people in my life. Clicking is like black and white for them. So my struggle with my self image of my weight doesn’t make since for them and me as well. It’s been so hard to explain to them how it has made me feel and act. My relationship with food has made me sick with myself. I’m not even that over weight. I’m 5,5 and when the problem started getting serious I was 167 I would do keto. The military diet, all these unhealthy depriving things to my body and it has messed my body up so much to the point that I don’t know how to fix myself. I do. But sticking to it working out without becoming obsessed with losing weight and beating myself up over eating the littlest things became impossible. To the point where I would throw it up and push myself to work out. I’m starting my journey once more and hopefully I can work on myself mentally as well and the knowledge that I’m not the only one struggling with this will help me. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m so excited to see your journey
natalee savage (19 days ago)
this helps me so much !!
Katya Padilla (19 days ago)
Im trying to go on a diet my problem is i dont really eat candie,chocolate, or cakes. I eat meat. And greasy food . any recommendations on what kind of food to eat? Or how to start a diet? I found it inspirational and i want to be healthy.
mishelle vargheese (19 days ago)
This video really helped thank you 😊
E A (19 days ago)
I love the way you speak, I don't know what it is about it but I like watching you talk. :) (I am not a creep)
Anna Scarborough (19 days ago)
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Blommekind * (20 days ago)
Does anyone have any tips as to how to stick to this kind of lifestyle change? I have a past of eating disorders so I can't be to strict on this. Usualy when I start something like this it either doesn't last long OR it gets completely out of control... I just want to lose a little weight and then maintain it (also I wouldn't mind getting more toned either lol)
itzskyduh (20 days ago)
I'm overweight can't relate for working out but anyways so proud of you you're so pretty and sweet! New subscriber! Love ya girl!!😍💗👏
Morgan Hindman (20 days ago)
this is so relatable / my problem is def pasta 😭 thank you so much for sharing your story!!
Matt Carriere (20 days ago)
girlll you looked good either way .. but gratzz giving me more motivation to get back to how i was ..
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Sara Ayala (21 days ago)
This was so relatable and real, thank you for sharing.
a Estrada (22 days ago)
the damn pancakes! !!
Jennise Higgins (23 days ago)
Ok let me start by saying I never leave comments and I NEVER watch long videos. That being said I watched your entire video, it parallels my life to an absolute t and because of that I was practically in tears. Throughout the whole video I was nodding my head and screaming (on the inside) yes! This is it, this is how I've wanted to explain myself for years. At the end when you touched on binging and overeating you said you had to eat the cookie "because you might not be able to have it tomorrow" and again I was over the moon excited that someone else gets it. The next day (like every other next day) is diet time again. I became SO obsessed with the numbers that I gave myself 8months or so of just not dieting. (Recall my story, including height weight etc were identical to yours) I had went up to 176lbs! I tore myself up and starved myself for about 3 months and went back to about 145lbs. Idk what your platform is about, healthy eating, workouts etc but I will be following. I'm glad you chose to do that from the heart, I am so so glad to have watched that video.
Claire Tynan (24 days ago)
Thank you so much for making this video. I'm currently in high school and have experienced and am still experiencing issues you mentioned (binge eating and being obsessed with a routine). I have literally never related to a video more than this one and it helps me so much just knowing someone else has thought the same thoughts and endured the same struggles
Lex Brown (25 days ago)
mxdchick 97 (25 days ago)
I’m in the process of recovery as well with bullimia, but it makes it so hard when everyone comments on how I’m gaining weight since I’ve stopped purging everything I eat . It makes me so scared
Amanda Allen (26 days ago)
I just wanted to say thank you for this video. By watching this I admitted to myself that I have a problem with binge eating. And I appreciate how real you were on this video. Just to see that you've made it so far from the weight that you have gained to the muscles that you have now is so inspiring. Thank you!
Maya A (27 days ago)
Thank you so much for making this video, it motivated me, because I’m trying to lose weight and I keep procrastinating and over eating (I binge eat less now) so thank you because I relate to this and it gave me the motivation I needed.
Shi Kin (27 days ago)
You're cat is very entertaining lol. Go on kitty love ya on the background
kay lee (28 days ago)
I relate to this 100% except I have bulimic, and I don't know how to stop, binge eating is something that I go two sometimes and then throw it up, bc it feels like the enemy in my stomach that I have to take out. Like you said I punish myself and throw it up for hours in the bathroom just to feel better about my body, but really I don't feel any better about myself than before I ate it...
Ashley63 Marston (29 days ago)
You were always skinny and fit always to me 🌷
Ana Paula Huerta (30 days ago)
I can relate so much to this video, to lose weight I did all the things you did and I knew it wasn't ok but kept going for the compliments and all that, I am currently trying to be healthier but some days I feel so anxious, but this video has definitely help me. This was such a good video 💕 you're so real and lovely 💕💕💕
krista e (30 days ago)
i. relate. so. much.
krista e (30 days ago)
i get you so so much with the binge eating, thank you for this video :)
Kourt xo (30 days ago)
When i was in high school I struggled so bad with my relationship with food. I became very OCD about calorie counting and if i had anything “unhealthy” id feel so bad about it id go workout and run 3 miles even if i had already worked out that day. Im starting to get back into fitness and watching this video was really helpful because my main fear is going through that again.
Divalandia World (1 month ago)
your story its definetly and inspiration im so motivated right now that i just decided that from tomorrow i need a change and i definetly going to post my story on my channel so that people could see that others can really get motivated trough you tube, girls... we can achieve anything in this life with dedication and pation......stay tune for my one month chanllenge
AngiesbricK (1 month ago)
Yeah, I feel ya. I’m a binge eater too. I call it the bottomless pit. I just eat and eat and do not get full no matter what . I feel like Homer on The Simpson’s 😩🤣 I can eat 2-3 heaping bowls of cereal with coffee creamer added 🤤 2 sandwiches, cookies, ice cream. There have been multiple times I’ve gone to McDonalds and got a quarter pounder with cheese MEAL, eat it on the way home just to turn around and go to another McDonalds (because of embarrassment) and order another quarter pounder meal. 😭Just truly “go in” all in one setting. These binges normally happen when I’m under high stress because I’m an emotional eater 😒😣 One moment can be I don’t want food, there’s no hunger what so ever for the whole darn day. Then the next moment I can run toe to toe with those “I’m 600 pounds” tv show people. 🤣😩I also went through that period when I lost 60 pounds doing pure cardio. I would do a spin class for 45 minutes in the morning on my days off, turn around two hours later and fight the urge to go back because I had plans on going back later that evening for another class . I’d go back anyways within the two hours and bang out an hour on the elliptical or 30 minutes then complete 30 minutes on the treadmill HIIT style. Ate like a bird and yes,when you’re losing quickly and hearing those compliments it just reinforces your behavior. Somehow when you mentioned your one day out the week binging it made me wonder is that what the health gurus would say is still okay? Like that’s the day you eat your most amount of calories to throw your body off of thinking its on a caloric restriction and in turn you continue to lose weight? What you were eating wasn’t healthy of course but it’s your body’s way of saying we need more intake now and had it been healthier choices would it have been ok? My binge episodes are way more frequent now especially after I’ve regained 30 of the 60 pounds back. I was doing good with maintenance for 3-4 years after my initial weight loss then all hell broke lose in my life and I’m having a hard time trying to keep it at bay while working out to try and lose what I’ve gained. This yo-yo system is quite irritating and the guilt is surreal and only triggers more eating or just that overwhelming sadness 🤷🏾‍♀️Let me not get into what stepping on the scale daily does to me too.😣🤦🏾‍♀️
Josephine Gabriel (1 month ago)
This reminded me so much of myself, this helped me a lot
Cora’s Journey (1 month ago)
Hi everyone! I'm trying to start my youtube weight loss channel! I've lost over 150 lbs and would love to share my story with yall!
Heavenz Zookeeper (1 month ago)
Idk i just thought about it but like awhile back I started developing an ED and I wouldn't eat and if i did I would feel bad after and my mom and older sister started to notice that I wouldn't eat at normal times and ate so little and would not touch high colorie foods i would workout 3+ times a day and they would be 5+ minutes and one day my older sister told me that if I continue this that when I eat a bagel or something like that my body would get uses to not eating much that I would gain all my weight so quick it would be hard to lose it again and I was so scared of being big or over weight I started to try and eat better my mom now always checks to see if I ate ,buys me fruit, and she would even cut it up for me like watermelon canalope and papya I still don't have a great relationship with food and I do workout no more than 2 times a day I do cardio and I am getting better I wasn't completely at an ED but Im fixing myself before it gets worse but I still am on a weight loss journey currently lost 5 pounds in 3 weeks 😊 I wish my self the best 💪
Matthew Steinmetz (1 month ago)
Luciana Lu (1 month ago)
This is so inspiring. Thank you so mich for share it.
Stefani Gwen (1 month ago)
Omg girlie, it's such an interesting experience for me to watch you. I feel like we are so similar. We even have the same skin! And we wear similar makeup :P I'm still on my fitness journey and I'm thankful you posted this motivational video :) to thank you, I want to tell you a secret that made my skin reflect how healthy I really am. I use Rose Hip Seed oil for under my eyes and I put Niacinamide + zinc from 'The Ordinary' by The abnormal beauty company online. <3 Purely just wanna give back. I hope you read this and try those products and it has a positive impact on you just as you've had a positive impact on me XOXOXOXO
Pau Zhou Shi (1 month ago)
lose weight is like getting a plastic surgery for free
Michael Pardee (1 month ago)
I can relate to this so much. I went through this and then I got injured, got off my diet and couldn’t work out and now I’m getting back into it and it’s hard
Guinevere Wolvetang (1 month ago)
love your personality so so so much! love from the netherlands
jada bollinger (1 month ago)
i have been trying to loose weight for 6 months now i was 155 now i am 143 my goal is being 120 wish me luck!! i’ll keep u updated
Emyleigh Simoes (1 month ago)
your story is literally the exact same as mine, down to how much lbs you lost. I went through a year of restricting then I started binging and now I'm still recovering. This video makes me really happy.
Danielle Leclerc (1 month ago)
From the age of 12-30 I suffered with binge eating, anorexia and bulimia. My lowest point as an adult was 117 lbs. When I got pregnant at 30 I had a really hard mental struggle. I knew I had to change and be the best I could be for our baby girl. So... I got pregnant at 133 lbs and delivered at 200lbs. You can only imagine how I felt at that point. I had a c section and the day after I got home I started the whole30. In the first month I lost 30 lbs. In the next few I lost the rest. I had a horrible tragedy when my daughter was 5 months old and at 7 months old I started antidepressants. I gained back 12 lbs and this is where I am at now. I've been back to the gym for 4 weeks and started the whole30 again yesterday. I'm ready for the change. Thanks for making this video. It definitely helped.
Hailee Mello (1 month ago)
I’ve been looking for a video like this for so long, thank you. I’m 15 and been having a really hard time trying to find a good diet for myself and would cry because i wouldn’t see results and i didn’t even know how to start. I always would beat myself up after eating stuff that wasn’t good for me. My weight kept going up and down and i just couldn’t find a way to be happy and to find a diet that I liked. Some of the stuff you said in this video helped me so much and I’m so happy i found this. I’ll definitely be taking some of the tips you recommended. Thank you so much xx
Alexandra bi. (1 month ago)
is it strange that i have never eaten burger from fast food chains? you are so inspiring!!!
Pewds Kjellburg (1 month ago)
she looks kinda like shailene woodley
BIANCA WALDMANN (1 month ago)
Everything will work out, trust me I'm an over weight teen who didn't think that I would ever lose weight. But I wanted to change to make myself better. I went to this amazing camp that changed my life. It made me realize that you are the only one in your way of success. But getting to the point I lost 53 pounds this summer and I'm so proud of myself!
Lulu Aguil (1 month ago)
You’re my hero. Literally described my issue I was too blind to realize ♥️
Tyneshia Edmonds (1 month ago)
Yo, I’m watching this at 3 am and when your cat was jumping down, I almost threw my phone 💀
Geezee Gamez (1 month ago)
This is so inspiring to me. I was 185 pounds, but I am now 169. My goal is 150 by Christmas and 120 by summer 2019. Keep going everyone!
Lexie Ward (1 month ago)
I'm currently trying to lose alot of weight that I've gained from mindless eating, i used to weigh 169 now I am 156, I started my journey only 21 days ago, and I feel amazing. I downloaded a pedometer app to count my steps, and got an app to track what I eat and make sure i eat up to 1,200 calories. My goal weight is 120-130 If anyone has any weight loss tip please share!
Alla Malaya (1 month ago)
Taite Innes (1 month ago)
this is such an amazing and informative video. Well done with your body transformation​!!
Soulful Sweat (1 month ago)
Congrats, it’s wonderful to hear people’s transformations and their new journey to health and well-being!!
James Schultz, Ph.D. (1 month ago)
It’s the ones who have overcome hardship and adversity that always have the most inspirational stories. What an awesome journey. Thanks so much for sharing!
nasyayankova (1 month ago)
where are u from?💖
Tanya. (1 month ago)
I actually watched the entire video. Thank you so much ❤ this really did inspire me to be better, happier, and healthier now.
Kiran Ejaz (1 month ago)
I do lots of exercise I usually drop dinner and eat breakfast of at least 350 calories and in lunch I have 400 calories and eat a chocolate biscuit but I m not loosing that much weight can u tell me what is the mistake that I m doing?????
22691 Shelby (1 month ago)
Thank you so much for sharing and being honest with us
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Don't people realize that body building , has a extreme negative effect on a persons sexuality??? Men become feminine, because their testicles don't function properly. And Women become extremely masculine, manly. Body building is not natural ……..natural muscle from your everyday life activities is different from gym " working out"....... it is not natural..... the repetitive movements with resistance in order to tear muscle fibres to promote muscle growth and change your physique is UNNATURAL, in my opinion
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Marylynn Tejeda (1 month ago)
I think people should eat normally because when they deprive themselves from these "bad foods,” when they do eat it they go all out.
Selina Gintner (1 month ago)
i just watched this while working out and it inspired me so much and unfortunately i could relate, but thank you for sharing your story because i know this can be very hard, thumbs up❤️
alexandra silverstein (1 month ago)
9:27 to get to the diet and exercise
ivee cuddles (1 month ago)
When you were describing binge eating that's how I feel every time
Geny Teddy (1 month ago)
And this is when I ask myself: do I binge?
Rachel Curran (1 month ago)
This made me realize I was being too restrictive so I had that chocolate bar I’ve been wanting but hadn’t eaten because I didn’t think I deserved it. Thank you.
This is a great video. It's tough being honest with yourself about having bad eating habits in the past, especially when it's based in emotion. Thanks for sharing your experiences!
DaLinnamonRoll (1 month ago)
Oh my gosh, girl you are so pretty! Your eyes are beautiful! Also... mayo in cookies??
Rebecca Goodridge (1 month ago)
From her pictures she never once looked fat.
Rebecca Goodridge (1 month ago)
Giraffe Ridingabike and yet despite all that, she still looked really good. Not saying she shouldn’t have lost weight or that she wasn’t unhealthy.
Rebecca Goodridge that is an opinion and it doesn’t add anything. She was medically overweight and even more than that, her health was at risk. She had high cholesterol and poor cardiovascular health. Being fat is relative
Anai Murillo-Gonzalez (1 month ago)
Why is this sooo relatable...
Madison Brakebill (1 month ago)
OMG YOURE SO PRETTY!!! I wish I can be as skinny and pretty as you
Logang Paulers (1 month ago)
i have no one to talk to, im all alone, And i just found out i have eating disorder
Active Bryant Systems (1 month ago)
looking goodwell done
Owl Productions (1 month ago)
I just wanna say I thought that was a bear in the beginning of the video but im guessing its a cat lol

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